I'm Sorry
27 days ago
– Thu, Oct 24, 2024 at 03:42:20 PM
I've made it a year, today.
I'm not entirely sure how. I'm not great, mentally/emotionally. Part of me thinks I'll be fine, I made it through the first year, which should be the hardest. Part of me has no idea HOW I made it, and doesn't think I can do this. I know instinctively that I can, and will, because I don't know how to do anything else EXCEPT survive, and I kind of hate that. I hate that I get to keep surviving but not truly living. No donations or projects can make that different, either. It's just how it is.
I also know that I don't think I can complete this, and I feel utterly terrible for that. This project was THE single most personal thing I've done, and I can't put in the 12 hour days on it anymore. It destroys me. When I started this deeply personal and vulnerable work with Sylv, I had no idea I'd lose them so soon after. When filling out the "potential obstacles" section of a Kickstarter to show backers that you're prepared for everything, does anyone really plan for that? I'm sorry I'm letting you down, and more sorry that I can't give refunds. Just surviving this year has wiped me out financially several times. Please understand it was never my intention, and I will never ask you to back another project again.
I love you, Sylv, and I still miss you so fucking much.
Still Here
5 months ago
– Mon, Jun 24, 2024 at 02:51:18 PM
My health has been a rollercoaster, and I'm honestly still struggling to work consistently on the comic at present for both physical/health related reasons and personal reasons. I'm sorry for the long delay, but losing my co-creator, best friend, and the person Eden is largely based on has been difficult. I'm not intending to give up, though, and appreciate all of you.
Hospital
8 months ago
– Sun, Mar 31, 2024 at 05:34:34 PM
Taking Zoey for her daily run, then checking myself in at Sunrise Hospital. My wound is forming an abscess and not draining like it usually does. This is only the second time in the 20 or so years I've had it that it's done this. The first time, about ten years ago, I was in for about a week. Hoping it's not as long this time.
My aids are still going to come over twice a day to clean up for Zelda and Zoey, make sure they have plenty of food and water, and give them a bit of company. It's leaving them home alone that I'm most upset about. They get very sad and mopey, especially after Sylv passed.
I'll be leaving instructions with a few people on what to do if the worst happens, but I'm fairly sure it won't come to that. Still, since it's just me, now, I need to be prepared.
If You Want To Help
10 months ago
– Wed, Jan 17, 2024 at 11:37:09 AM
I explained where things are at in my update yesterday, and your responses and support meant a lot to me. It was asked if there's something up that people can give to and help me through this, so I'm sharing that link here with all of you. You've already pledged and helped so much, so please don't feel like you have to do more.
The link is https://gofund.me/d98453b4
You'll have to copy/paste as this site doesn't like steering traffic away from it.
Still Trying
10 months ago
– Tue, Jan 16, 2024 at 03:26:30 PM
Hey, everyone. Want to let you know I'm still here, still trying. I worked today, not happy with the results, but I'm trying. Sylv's passing has been hard on me, in more than the ways that losing a soul-mate and life-long partner usually is. I'm having to learn and figure out how to do even the most basic things myself as I'm now completely on my own 22+ hours a day as a quadriplegic. It's taking longer than I'd hoped, there are still things I'm struggling to do, and any single, simple thing can derail my entire day.
I'm trying. For now, that's all I can do. Please bear with me.
